It is no secret that I have Bi-Polar Disorder and PTSD. It’s not easy to live with these two conditions. Without medication I have severe mood swings, go days without sleep, suffer from paranoia and battle depression. The last batch of drugs caused me to break out with a skin rash and turned me into a zombie. That feeling is no fun. It makes your day drag on and you have no motivation, impairing your reaction time while putting you in a lethargic state. My medications cause bad bouts of depression and insomnia, making it hard to get up in the mornings. I have missed many of my classes this semester. It is very hard to wake up when there is no motivation or desire to get out of bed. And this is not a feeling that can be pushed aside or thought away.